I've recently been reading Too Busy NOT to Pray. It's changed my prayer life and my life in just a short time. I feel God with me more. Hear him more. I've been praying about a certain situation in my life. I've prayed that God would handle it in the way I thought he would want me to. What I thought was his will. Then suddenly at the most inoppurtune time I suddenly felt like he was telling me 'Wendy, you've prayed that long enough and I haven't answered it. Don't you think it's time you changed your prayer?'. So, I did because I always listen when God gets that sarcastic tone with me. I actually changed my prayer to pray for the outcome I wanted but didn't originally think could be his will. The thing is that I know God could easily do things to bring this outcome quickly and how I WANT it. I don't think he is though. I think I know his will, but his will involves a lot of patience...a lot of faith and a lot of hope. I would rather he would just answer the first prayer...you know the outcome I don't really want, but know he could make happen and it would be okay kin the long run. He can change my heart...why won't he? I feel like he's working, but I also feel like this won't be the quick answer I'm wanting to be his will or the change of heart I want to be his will. I sometimes wish God didn't want to teach us to be better people and to build our faith and patience. Seriously. He is GOD. He could just say 'poof...you are a woman of great faith' or maybe I could pray for patience before I go to bed and wake up a fresh and patient person. I guess if that is how teaching worked, though, I would be out of a job.