Knocking

I want so badly for God to take control of certain areas of my life. I yearn for him to direct me in some relationships, some aspects of my life. I give them freely over to him. I even beg him to take control. I realized yesterday I don't do this with every area. Is he not my God in every part of my life? Should I not let him have control over all things? Some things I don't even thing to bring to him or to ask him to help me with. Big things. I let myself become overwhelmed and feel helpless. It's so strange to me. Such a sign of weakness in my spiritual life. I need to let him into every area. I need to trust him with my life not just the little parts I don't want to deal with anymore. He is able and willing to take it all. I don't know why it has to be such a struggle for me to just ask him to take it? He wants to take my pain. I'm not supposed to be in control. I wish it wasn't so hard for me to just give it all over and ask him to take over everything. It's scary though. Letting go certainly isn't what we are taught today to do. We are taught as women to take on more, that we are equal, there is nothing we cannot do. 
"Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in" Rev. 3:20

He's there waiting, asking...